my own abyss

i'm falling in

i'm blooding in

and i won't be able to run

not forever

it's slavery

it's suffering

but it's mine

and i can't turn my back to it

not while i'm still alive

nobody will ever understand it

nobody will ever see it

but i can

i keep feeling it

i keep drowning in it

i keep dying in it

and nobody will ever see it

nobody will ever understand it

help me

mom

dad

somebody

anybody

take me off

give me hope

give me strenght

give me life

or at least

let me die peacefully

.

.

.

.

because i feel like i'm already dead.